It’s Okay…
Facing reality…. It doesn’t always involve looking into the mirror and seeing a person that you want to. Much of the time it involves seeing a person that you don’t want to see. Looking at a reflection of yourself and not knowing who you are can serve as a pain far more brutal and deeply rooted than that of any physical extreme. You will weep in sorrow at times, and you will stare back in hatred at a person who looks weak that you claim not to know. At others you may feel peace and tranquilly as the air whispers silence to a usually overwhelmed mind. The truth behind all of this is what the world does not want you to know is that It is Okay…. It is Okay to live in discomfort as long as it leads you realize that comfort always has its hand out waiting for you to hold it… It is Okay to live in sadness as long as you realize that tears drown your demons while happiness and gratitude wait on the other side on dry ground… It is Okay to live with fear as long as you know you are strong enough to get through anything that may be causing it to surface for you.
I just stared off into a mirror for the longest period of time that I have in years. I initially noticed the bags under my eyes and the fear that lies behind the eyes within them about staying the course and living this better life. I then got angry and called myself a coward in my mind while I screamed other things at myself in reality. Tears flowed down my face as I began to write this Blog scared of what may come of doing so. A million questions came to light in a matter of seconds, and even more answers followed from the better side of me initially and the old version of myself as well. The voices in my mind then began to talk and for the first time ever it was a conversation that was over and done with so quickly compared to the endless rant that usually occurs. And it said this… “If you claim to want to serve as the strength for others you need to continue to find the strength that is unique to you. You need to keep remolding the definition of hope to yourself so that you can help reflect upon others that it does not look the same for all of us, but that with every version of hope comes the potential to create change. This conversation need go no further, nor does your reason to keep pushing Anthony. The day is what you make it and beauty does not create itself if you don’t keep your eyes open to see it.” I then felt a breath enter my lungs that was so rejuvenating that putting it in words is nearly unrealistic. No words needed. When you know, you know…. Perfectly placed peace after surviving another mental storm that I was meant to tread through.
I have heard so many times that people are tired. Not the type of tired that time can cure or sleep can remedy. I understand that for exactly what it is and exactly what outcomes it can bring. There is a choice to be made, and I hope that this lands on every set of eyes and ears that it needs to. You are everything you need and more to make what you see in this life (including yourself) worth living for. It is up to you and no one else. When you realize what bring happiness and peace to reality, you will do whatever it takes to protect that.
What will you do today to find the driving force and strength needed to weather the storm so you can clearly acknowledge and face the peaceful moments in life as they are meant to be appreciated?
